Monday, January 23, 2012
i've always been a fairly honest person, but you can only be as honest with others as you are with yourself. i'm more honest with my counselor than anyone else and i think that is because i answer questions he asks not realizing that i'm going to say something out loud that i don't want to believe. sometimes i'll answer a question, then gasp, and i think that's horrible. apparently i'm not horrible. apparently my thoughts are normal and natural reactions to the situations in my life. so, i've been thinking a lot about honesty lately and how honest i really am with myself. i need to be completely honest with myself so that i can be completely honest in my relationships. this year i want to be honest and true to myself. i want to be better than i am. so far i'm not really doing anything differently than i ever have, but it's only january. maybe with spring and warmer weather in a few months i'll get motivated. i really hope so.