...my journey through the valleys and over the mountains as i learn to live with the 'new' reality of losing xavier ian. this is a place i can jot down thoughts, feelings, and things i am learning through this journey of life.

if my dreams came true...

Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

since the nightmare began...

Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

Saturday, February 20, 2010

i took a nap...

i just woke up from a five hour nap!

this morning i went grocery shopping, put the groceries away when i got home, and ate lunch. then, i put miss andi down for her nap and i went to lay down...i woke up five hours later (feeling very refreshed) and in a much better mood than i had been in the last few days.

i've really been missing xavier and i don't know why...i mean of course i'm going to miss him, but this is like the beginning again. grief doesn't make sense. grief is unpredictable. grief is bittersweet (remembering the past and longing for a future that will never be) and i'm so glad that i have wonderful friends to support and encourage me through this grief.

i'd like to end this post by thanking a few people for supporting/encouraging me this week...
...jamie
...kelly
...megan
...brenda

...amy
...there are others, but these are the one's that first come to mind! i really needed support/encouragement this past week and without even knowing it you were all great blessings to me! thank you.

1 comment:

  1. i am here for you love! whenever you need me. and thank you so much for being there for me as well!

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