...forgotten

xavier ian was stillborn six months ago. sometimes it seems that i'm the only one who hasn't forgotten. yesterday i received a message on facebook from someone i hadn't spoken to in years. she said, "so sorry to learn you lost a son. that has to be tough." it made my day that she acknowledged xavier because it seems so many have forgotten him.

up until a month ago my son and daughter would talk about 'the baby', but i fear they too have forgotten.

i haven't forgotten; i never will.

i struggle to keep xavier's memory alive because he never lived outside the womb. i am the only one who knew him, but even i only feel that i knew of him sometimes. i never felt him move (he was too young). there is a bond between a mother and her child from the moment the child is conceived and that bond cannot be broken! i love xavier ian, just as i love michael and andi. i miss him.